Tuesday, March 03, 2015

"There's no magic pill." part 2: Praying for inspiration and taking that leap of faith

I wanted there to be a magic pill.  How could I POSSIBLY lose 110 lbs?  Wasn't there some kind of surgery that was approved for people 100 lbs. overweight or more?  Didn't I qualify for that?

But thinking back on my recovery from my hysterectomy 4 months earlier, a surgery was the last thing I wanted to go through.  As far as I understood, that surgery made your stomach smaller so you couldn't overeat.  There was no guarantee I would get all the nutrients I needed with my limited stomach capacity.  I didn't want to be that woman with the hanging skin because I had surgery to ensure rapid weight-loss.  But I also didn't want to be 110 lbs. overweight anymore.  I wasn't just overweight.  I was obese.

"You know how to do this," her words echoed in my mind.  Did I?

If I knew how to do this, why couldn't I just do it?  A close friend encouraged me to try the Atkins Diet.  I wasn't going to pay to join something, not even sure you have to for that, so I looked up what I could online.  Sure, I lost some weight following it.  But I was always constipated.  There were so many fruits and veggies on the list of things I should hardly ever eat, that my system was just not happy.

I fasted and prayed about how to get healthier.  I felt like if it was up to self-control, it wasn't going to happen.  But perhaps if my Heavenly Father wanted me to lose the weight, I could.  But I needed some divine intervention.  Or a nudge.  I'd take a nudge in the right direction.  Anything would be better than eating too much cheese and very little fruit.

Mid-December, a little over a week after fasting and praying about help to get healthier and lose weight and a month after my doctor's appointment, I got a Facebook message from Kelsie, an old friend from the Frozen North who's totally fit and a personal trainer and has more energy than my 5 year old twin boys.  Plus she was Pookie's primary teacher when he was 4.  He used to stroke her skirt because he loved the way the fabric felt.  Hey, it kept him quiet.  But I digress...

Kelsie was inviting me to join a "Shake it Off" Challenge.  It was a biggest loser type game with motivation, cash prizes, recipe ideas and workout tips.  

I could use healthy recipe ideas and workout tips.  The very idea of working out scared the daylights out of me-- I could injure myself!  But who could give me better tips than a personal trainer, right??

But this was just before Christmas.  And well, you know me, I'm a baker.  I was busy making cheeseballs for youth parties, and cheesecake with my number 1 girl, and cookies for the neighbors, and rolls for the ward Christmas dinner, and on and on and on.

Maybe I'll look at that invite again after Christmas.  I would make sure I had some goals for the New Year.

But the new year came.  All I knew was I wanted to lose weight and develop some healthier habits.

I was pretty depressed about my state of health.  I was snoring like a beast.  According to Danny, it would shake the bed.  Even when he rolled me onto my side, I still snored-- though not bed-shaking snoring.

January 5th, I took the kids for a walk.  It was the first Monday of the new year and I was going to start my new healthy habit.  I decided I would walk 3 days a week for at least 15 minutes.  We walked for 25 minutes.  It felt REALLY good to be doing what the doctor said to do.

I did it again on Wednesday, January 7th.  25 minutes was really good for me.  Go me!  The kids were loving the outdoors time.

I decided not to let the week get away from me and did it Thursday instead of waiting for the weekend to make me lose momentum.  But it was 20 minutes.  Not bad.  I was a day ahead of my goal and 5 minutes longer anyway.

For whatever reason, that evening I remembered that message from Kelsie from 3 weeks earlier.  So I contacted her about "my friend" to ask some questions.  I was excited about everything she was saying:

Whole foods
vegan shakes

I thought Danny would never go for it.  It was going to be about $5 a day for the program she was telling me about.  I was thinking I'd need it for like 3 or 4 months to get a good jump-start on my weight-loss and solidify some healthy new habits.  That was going to add up to like $600 if I did 4 months straight.  Maybe I could just get the capsules and the occasional shake.

But Danny said, "Yes."  We were very worried about my health.  I didn't want to die before I was 40.  What did I have to lose?  They had a 30-day money back guarantee.  And after that, I could always send back what was unopened for a refund.  I figured I would know for sure by the 30 day mark if it was going to be worth doing 3 or 4 months.

So I signed up with Kelsie and joined her "Shake it Off" challenge too.  I was going to utilize this opportunity to learn everything I could about bettering my health and get recipes and workout tips.

To be continued...  

Monday, March 02, 2015

Rachel's 3 ingredient PB cookies dairy-free and gluten-free

I got a new recipe from my baby sister, Rachel, today.  I know she found it on Pinterest, but my family is calling them:  

(See the little hand trying to get another?)

Rachel's 3 ingredient PB cookies 

1 egg
1 cup peanut butter
1 cup sugar 

Bake for 12-15 minutes at 350°F.  


They don't spread much, so you could put them closer than I did.  
This recipe makes about 18 cookies.  But I don't know anyone that bakes just 18 cookies.  
Double it or triple it.  
They'd probably freeze well too-- if you could stop your family from inhaling them.  
Without chocolate chips, they are 128 calories each.  

You can visit Rachel at and thank her for surfing Pinterest and finding this gem and passing it on to me because I passed it on to you.  

My 4-year old convinced me to put chocolate chips in them.  In retrospect I think they were perfect without.  They'd probably be great with crunchy peanut butter.  

My 3 youngest, Squdge (5), Peach (4), and Biscuit (2) fought over space on the stepstool.
(not baked yet)

They watched silently as I pressed down the cookies with a fork, "Fork impressions are the universal sign of peanut butter cookies," I said.  

"Ohhh," they said in unison taking it all in.

You've gotta start young to train up the next generation of bakers.  ;)  

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

First try at homemade gluten-free dairy-free bread

I made my first loaf of gluten-free and dairy-free bread today.  
It was gummier than gluten bread and I haven't tried toasting it. 
It was WAY more expensive to make than homemade whole-wheat bread.

My kids are begging me to make more.

I plan to try this same recipe again, but with my own ground gluten-free flours.

I'll also try it with almond flour instead of a blend of gluten-free flours.

And another variation I'm considering is adding more xanthum gum.

If you've tried making gluten-free dairy-free bread and have a good recipe, please share it in the comments!!

Friday, February 20, 2015

My house smells like Christmas exploded.

Peach came to me crying and sounding congested saying, "I need a bandaid for my nose!"

I told her we just use tissues for our nostrils, not bandaids.  Her crying increased to near-deafening levels as she insisted she needed a bandaid because her nose hurt.

She had used the entire bottle.  

My house smells like Christmas exploded.

When questioned she said, "Biscuit told me to do it."

Thank goodness my awesome friend Sarah suggested coconut oil to help remove it from her hands, face and nostrils.  It's like twins 2.0 with these girls.  

Thursday, February 19, 2015

"There's no magic pill."

Since my doctor's appointment mid-November, I have been on a path to lose weight and get healthier.

This path started with me tracking everything I ate in My Fitness Pal app.  (I'm "Nikkiairforcewife" if you want to add me.)  I needed to know first of all my starting place.  Then I could improve.

Everyday that I didn't walk, I could hear my doctor's words in my head.

"You need to walk 3-5 times a week for 30 minutes.  You could walk out to a park 15 minutes away with your kids, let them play, and then walk back 15 minutes.  It doesn't have to be all at once.  You just need to get moving."

"There's no magic pill.  You know how to do this.  You need to eat less and exercise more."

"You're going to have diabetes and heart disease in no time if you don't work hard to get this weight off."

"It will be harder since your hysterectomy.  Those changes in hormones makes it more difficult to lose the weight.  But you can do this."

But still I couldn't find time in my week to walk more than one day.  In the first month I walked twice.  I was too busy homeschooling 8 kids, buying food for and feeding my family of 10, and sometimes keeping up with the laundry.

In the afternoons, when I wasn't as busy, I didn't have the energy.  I wanted a nap, not a walk.

I did drop a little weight just from keeping track and trying to avoid obvious bad choices like chips and ice cream.

May 4, 2014 I had to cut off my ring because none of the tricks worked to remove it and it was cutting off my circulation.  It was red and extra swollen here because of the techniques we were trying (like the dental floss trick).

To be continued...

Saturday, February 14, 2015

In which I feel a kinship to Tom Sawyer

Guess who loves to vacuum?  This boy.  

Squdge begged me to vacuum.  So I made him a deal.  If he picked up 10 things and put them away, I'd let him vacuum.  

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

No combs for Peach

This girl wants long silky hair that she can brush and comb.  She tried with all her might to comb it this morning.

With this comb:
She fuzzed it up even more and couldn't get the comb to go through.  I convinced her it was time for cereal.

Everyone tells her what beautiful curls she has.  But she sees Gabbers and Biscuit's brushable hair and she sees dolls with straight hair and she wants hair like that too.  

She says to me, "Make mine flat, please."

It's not that she thinks she's not beautiful, she just sees what you can do with brushable hair.
If she could only celebrate her uniqueness-- just the way God made her.

Monday, February 02, 2015

Inching my way back to health

Today is 80 days of logging my food on and 20 lbs. lost.  I've been doing Transform30 and taking Juice Plus for two weeks including their complete shakes.  I feel so amazing everyday now and find myself waking bright and early every morning.  I can't even imagine how much better I'll feel with another 90 lost!

I was so encouraged by the scale this morning that I went to the gym at 6:40  and lifted weights for 20 minutes.  

Tomorrow my plan is to get there by 6:30 so I can do a half hour before needing to come back in time for Danny to go to work.  And if that doesn't kill me, I'll go again the next day.  ;)
(This is me post workout this morning with no make-up or hair done.)

Monday, January 26, 2015

Biscuit's Bean Kiddie Kwip

Tonight Biscuit was picking through my giant bowl of salad (while I was eating it) in search of olives and kidney beans to eat.  

She pulled out a bean that had a piece of cilantro over the top and said to herself,

"Oh, why does this bean have hair?"  

And then she ate it.  Gave me a good chuckle.

(This will be added to the selection of Kiddie Kwips that can be viewed in the top tabs of my blog.)


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