Friday, December 03, 2010

in which I whine and then give thanks

Baby Girl is 3 weeks old today.  I hesitated blogging this or not.  But since my blog is very much a journal for me, I decided to post.  One day I'll be able to look back and read this free from the stress I'm typing into it today.

We are praying for weight gain here.  Baby Girl is "Failure to Thrive."

This Tuesday, the 30th of November, she had a wide-base tongue-tie clipped.  Isn't it amazing that the first four kids had no problem with tongue-tie but the youngest three do?

In Baby Girl's case, her tongue-tie has caused a lot of weight loss. At 10 days old she had dropped an entire pound from her birth-weight.

Now she's healing from the clipping. I have to push up the underside of her tongue 3-4 times a day so it doesn't scar over. She is NOT okay with it. I feel like I'm torturing her. I keep telling myself that "this too shall pass" and it won't be any time at all when I'll look back and it will be a faint memory, like . . .

losing my full-time full-benefits job when I was 7 months pregnant with my oldest.

like the nightmarish c-section.

the day I lost all touch with reality.

hospitalizing my 9 lb. 3 month old Gabbers for RSV.

ridding my home of all gluten when I was (mis)diagnosed Celiac.

losing a triplet.

surviving negative 50 degree temps in the Frozen North
continuing the first trimester of a multiples pregnancy with a crazy bout of influenza while my hubby was away at training in another timezone.
haha.  I sound like I've had an adventurous life. But no.  not really.

But all these things seemed near-unbearable at the time. 

And I survived.  Thanks to my Heavenly Father.

This too shall pass.

7 comments:

i'm erin. said...

Oh no. I didn't know she wasn't doing good. I hope she gets better soon. I'm not sure what a tongue tie is, but it doesn't sound fun.

Ticklemedana said...

oh, Nikki...sending some prayers your way.

Susan said...

Oh my goodness, Nikki!! Hang on girl!! Much prayers going your way!

Anonymous said...

I hope you'll soon find the light at the end of the tunnel. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers!

Rach said...

WE love you & are praying for you, her & the whole family. I am sure that you & her will pull through in no time. I always say to myself..."If Nikki can do it, I can do it!" And I am sure YOU CAN DO IT!

love rach

Melessa Gregg said...

I'm pulling for you too! I'm sadly familiar with failure to thrive and RSV with a very young baby. But you are right, this too shall pass. Just know there are a lot of us thinking of you and praying for your family while it does.

Lisa said...

*warning, this might be a tad novelish* In Sunday School we heard this thing I found really poignant... After the Teton dam collapsed and flooded southern Idaho, a group of psychologists wanted to find a pattern between who would keep it together and get things accomplished, and those who would crumble. They found born leaders from all walks of life--the poor farmers who were used to tragedy, the rich, the young, the old... no pattern was established in where the strongest came from, but a definite pattern emerged: the ones who would lead, and the ones who would lose it, were the ones who always did.

Remember that every day we have experiences to prepare us, test us, and encourage us. How you handle the little things prepares you for how you'll handle the big things--and vice versa. All trials are part of the Lord's plan and have a purpose, as difficult as it might be. All of your trials have built you into the wonderful woman you are today. Yes, this too shall pass. We'll pray for you and your family and especially your baby girl. Hang in there. You are truly amazing!