Since finding out I am pregnant with triplets I have been on a high, kind of in shock, and very much giddy and giggly about it.
Today I took Gabbers, Bun, and Ham downtown with me to pick up a joint food storage order and to go to Denny's for their free Grand Slam breakfast. I wanted to leave the house early so we could go to Housing Maintenance on base first and get our free monthly furnace filter and replace part of a light fixture. Ham was sleeping in late because he's had a cold for a couple days. Gabbers and Bun were playing Starfall. I was sitting in the middle of my messy living room staring at the floor. But that part isn't important. =P
Halfway to my friend's house (who I was following to pick up the order), reality hit and I started bawling.
What am I doing? I don't know how to have triplets. What am I going to do with triplets? How could I take triplets out to run errands like this along with at least three other children?I turned up the music so Gabbers wouldn't hear me sobbing like a loon. Bun had fallen asleep as soon as we left the gate. Ham was staring off in a phlegm-filled stupor. I called my mom and blubbered to her.
I don't know why people think I can do this. I don't know why Heavenly Father thinks I can do this. I don't even know how to prepare for this. I'm not a patient mom at all!Mom reassured me with comforts of the church members will help us wherever we are. Whether we are here in the Frozen North or near family in Utah or on to our new base wherever that may be- I will have lots of help. And I will need to accept it.