Friday, August 28, 2009

The twin birth story part 2

The doctor performed a test to determine if I was numb. She said it was pinching. The first two pinches I could feel the tug but not the pain. The third pinch I felt a little pain. She did the test again a couple minutes later. Same results. But for some reason, she started to cut anyway. I didn't feel the initial cut and I prayed hard to Heavenly Father that it would continue that way. But then the moving of stuff a opening and separating my innards definitely brought out the pain. I squeezed Danny's hand as hard as I could and begged him not to watch. I was so worried that he would pass out and I wouldn't have any support through the pain. It was awful. Like my friend's mother described to her when asked about her experiences with a not-numb c-section, "you know in those nature shows when it shows a lion eating a gazelle? That's what it feels like."

"It hurts. It hurts. I need drugs," I found myself repeating. I kept praying in my head and tried to focus on babies coming out any moment. I tried to tell myself that giving birth to Hammy was more painful. But I wasn't convinced. I felt like if I could just apply pressure to my right side I would feel better. Danny kept saying, "No. Don't touch," and grabbing my hand. At some point they strapped both my arms down.

Moments after the second baby was born and I heard a little cry I knew an end was in sight. I asked Danny, "Do they look alike?" He said, "Well, it's hard to tell because they're all slimy."

The placenta was delivered and finally the silent anesthesiologist said in response to Danny's inquiring to what he was doing, "I'm giving her morphine."

My neck tensed up and I felt hot from shoulder to shoulder across my back. I felt the vomit coming. I said, "I feel so sick." The anesthesiologist placed a little emesis basin next to my face. The doctor said something to him about controlling the pain level and he replied, "If the morphine doesn't work, I'll put her under."

The next thing I remember is being rolled into the recovery room and Danny saying to the nurse, "So, tell me about her ovaries."

to be continued . . .



read The twin birth story part 1
read The twin birth story part 3

11 comments:

Smockity Frocks said...

OH MY WORD! I can not believe they couldn't do more to help you, Nikki!

I'm sorry you had it so rough.

A. said...

CRAZY! I can't take this little bit by little bit fo story. I'm on edge! I jsut can't beleive you had to go through that pain and even telling them they did nothing. :(
Your ovaries????

Laurie HF said...

You never do things the easy way, do you! How funny, the word I have to type at the bottom in order to comment is very fitting: "Panic"

Laura said...

Nikki!!! They didn't, did they? They did it even though you were in pain? How horrifying!

And your ovaries... what happened to your ovaries?

Renee' said...

I can't believe that you had to go through that Nikki. That was terrible to hear, I can't imagine what it was like to endure. I had to c-sections, and I have to tell you that that was my worst fear. I feel so bad that all of that happened w/todays technology. I hope that you are doing better.

The Schooley's said...

I don't think I can pull my jaw up off the floor! I am so sorry. Holy crap, that is terrible.

Kimberly @ RaisingOlives said...

praying for you and for you sweet babies.

Julie V. said...

I am SOOOO glad that none of my nine were C-section deliveries!

JenT said...

What?! Why did they do that? What was the rush? Why couldn't they make sure you were numb? I've only had one c-section and wish I hadn't even had that one. I can't even imagine not being entirely numb through it.

muggins mahooney said...

Tell me about her ovaries!? Are you feeling better yet? I hope so.
I was so worried about the same thing happening to me as well. I kept asking the doctors if I was numb. The doctors just kind of shrugged it off and then I got smart and asked Sean if my insides were on my outside, to which he replied, "oh yeah."
Get feeling better.

P.S. How's the nursing going?

Julie said...

Just saw your comments on my blog so I popped over to check out yours. I don't know if it was supposed to be funny, but I laughed so hard when I read "So tell me about her ovaries..." It sounds like the worst pick-up line ever!

Thanks for reading my stuff and offering your words of support. Yep. We'll make it through.