Thursday, June 05, 2008

Dear Journal, I promise to lose weight.

Today I weigh what I did full-term with Ham. Well, I didn't really get full-term, did I? So actually I weigh what I did the day I delivered Ham at 34 1/2 weeks. ack.

I fear I will have a heart attack before the age of 35. I worry my kids will pick up my bad habits of eating junk and not exercising regularly.

I fear I will get pregnant again and have the most EXHAUSTING pregnancy from being so overweight. I fear gestational diabetes. I fear REAL diabetes. I don't like being afraid. Today it all changes. I figure I have about two months to lose a little weight.

See when Pookie was 14 months old, I found out I was pregnant with Gabbers. When Gabbers was 14 months old, I found out I was pregnant with Bun. When Bun was 14 months old, I found out I was pregnant with Ham. Well, Ham is 12 months old. My doctor also told me to wait two months before getting pregnant again.

About the last pregnancy, for those of you who don't know the gory details, do not be sad or worry for me. It turns out I had a blighted ovum. With that knowledge, I feel like I got a head start on being excited for the next baby. Okay, now I really have to lose weight, next one's for real! With my limited knowledge on the subject of blighted ovums, I'm surprised it didn't happen earlier. It kind of explains the weird test results from the clinic early on and my minimal morning sickness. I'm feeling gung-ho about getting in shape and being prepared with a full freezer for the next pregnancy. I do realize I can't lose all the weight I need to in two months, but at least I can start and prepare for a healthier pregnancy.

So, too much information? Oh well. This IS my journal.


Smockity Frocks said...

I had a blighted ovum, too! And I want to lose 20 lbs. I told myself, "Today is the day I begin to eat sensibly."

Julie V. said...

You can do it! You'll feel so much better, too. Take baby steps if necessary - a little less snack foods, a little more all adds up.

jenny said...

I am currently working on losing weight, too. I even went to the dietician, but I'm only half following her advice. I got sent there for high blood pressure, but suspiciously when I get it taken at the grocery store it's a TON better than in the exam room with doctors in BDUs. Anywho, I haven't really started working out, but have just been watching my portion size and calorie intake (I literally counted the first week, but I'm lazy now and guesstimate) and I've lost about 6 lbs in the last 3 weeks.

Amy said...

Since you are offering so much information... :) Were you trying to get pregnant when each was 14 months old, or did it just happen that way? Talk about spacing them all just even! ;)

Well, the GBS results I got this pg really put me in teh mode to eat healthy. It wasn't easy to grab a bag of snap peas over cookies, but I just made myself. So that's how I started. Just putting alot of snack type veggies and fruits readily at hand and made sure I grabbed those first. Then I made myself full enough I was able to say no to the bad stuff. Still struggling! But at least I feel a little more balanced. :) That and I haven't allowed myself to buy anything that is junk food for myself. If it's not in the house, it's not a temptation....just a day dream. :)

Nikki said...


I haven't prevented pregnancy since January 1999. So Heavenly Father sent them at just the right time. Nursing didn't have much to do with the timing. Pookie nursed until 20 months, Gabbers 18 months, Bun 10 1/2 months, and Ham is still nursing at 12 1/2 months. It just worked out that way. They are also all about 21 months apart due to being preemies.

5 more stomach-crunches for me!

Leslie said...

Not beating yourself up over the weight issue is the first step to reaching your happy, healthy weight. One thing that helped me in the past and I'm working on once again is trying to not feel so guilty that I've regained or am not at whatever weight I used to be at, but to just do what you are doing - to tell ourselves that today we begin our healthier lives and each day will be another day to be a bit healthier and keep moving forward. One of the biggest helps when I lost in the past was writing everything I ate down. I'm doing that again - not counting points because I don't want to fall back to an all or nothing feeling, but just writing to be aware of what I'm eating. usually when I do that I find I'm more conscious of my food choices and actually eat less without trying so hard. Good luck - you'll do great !

Jo said...

Don't think about what you shouldn't do, think about what you should do. Just say to yourself, today I'm going to eat healthy, and then do it. Add stuff to your diet that way rather than keeping yourself from things.

JoMamma said...

Drop down and give me 5 more.

Over the past few months I have gotten some friends to workout with me. One of them being your sister. She has pushed me up the big hill day after day. Well not really pushed, but motivated me. When I know that someone else is waiting for me I feel much more inclined to actually get off the couch.


SuperCoolMom said...

Good for you! Go for it!!!

gurrbonzo said...

You can do it! I have been amazed in the last few weeks, as I've tried to start losing the baby weight, how much good exercise affects my energy level and my mood. Good for you! This is dumb, but I like being told what to do when easing back into exercise, so may I recommend this couch-potato-to-runner transition:


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